it fucking sucks when someone you care about is going through a really hard time with something but you can’t do shit for them except for type things back and forth with them because of the distance

it’s the shittiest feeling to know that a person you care about isn’t okay but you can’t do anything for them

(Source: toujiii, via infinityandyou)

Don’t cry because it’s over… smile because it happened

My last night in rez…I cannot believe that it is this time of year already. I swear it was just last week that I was moving into residence at Ottawa U, and just yesterday that I was moving into my room at Carleton. But here I am, April 24th 2012, and i’m sitting in my room among boxes and suitcases not wanting to go to sleep in this room for the last time.

 These past 8 months have been full of ups and downs to say the least. I started my year off at the University of Ottawa… where I thought I wanted to be. Quite soon after starting there I became very sick, and I took that as my body’s way of telling me I was in a place that wasn’t right for me. The semester was full of amazing memories, which I can attribute to a very special group of people. Before I knew it, december had rolled around and brought with it the dread of exams, but also the excitement in knowing that once those exams were said and done with… I’d be moving on to a place that was right for me.

January brought a new beginning. I moved into my room at Carleton on a frigid winters day, and ever since i’ve had the feeling that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Over the past 4 months at Carleton I’ve made countless memories thanks to the same wonderful group of people that made my first semester a little bit brighter. This group of people is unlike any group i’ve ever met. They are the most friendly, welcoming, amazing people and I am beyond grateful that they welcomed me into their little family. My last 4 months would not have been the same without them. I’ve made new friendships and strengthened old ones over these past few months, and now that it is time for us to all go home for the summer, I find myself wishing that school was in session year round. It is going to be weird to go home and not see those familiar faces at dinner, or see them in the elevators or run into them in the tunnels on the way to class. I’m going to miss taking up 4+ tables in the cafeteria at dinner, midnight trips to Oasis, and knowing that there is always someone close by to talk to.

I guess we’re lucky since a lot of us live in the GTA, so i’m sure there will be various get togethers over the summer. But there are 2 people very dear to my heart that are going to be on the other side of the country. I’ve only recently become closer with them, and I only wish that it had happened earlier in the year. They are 2 of the most genuinely friendly and kind people I have ever met, and I am going to miss them so much this summer. That goes for everyone, whether they be in vancouver or toronto, or even one town over in burlington. It just won’t be the same as having them in the same building. 

Even though i’ve been looking forward to summer forever, I cannot wait until september comes around. I’m moving into my first house, with 3 of the most amazing girls ever. Next year is going to be unreal. I can’t wait to spend the summer shopping for furniture, and making trips up to Ottawa to paint, decorate and move things in. Besides the fact that we have an awesome house with amazing people, just down the street is another house full of amazing people. I’m lucky enough to have Andrew living just down the street from me! Between our two houses, next year is going to be absolutely unreal and I cannot wait!

Sitting here now and looking back on things… there are things I wish I had done differently, situations I could have taken better advantage of. If I could do it all over again, the only thing I would change would be to have started first year off at Carleton instead of Ottawa U. Within the first week of being at Carleton I knew it was right for me. I wish I had gotten to know a handful of people better then I did. But I can’t change the past, so I’ll just have to keep that in mind, and fully take advantage of every opportunity next year. This past year has simply been the first of many amazing years to come. I’m sad that it’s over, but I cannot wait to see what the summer and next year are going to bring.